Boston Red Sox outfielder Jarren Duran had a breakthrough season in 2024, hitting 21 homers and stealing 34 bases, leading the majors in doubles and triples, and winning MVP honors in his first All-Star Game appearance.
Those highs are a long way from the lows he experienced only a few years earlier.
In Episode 4 of the Netflix documentary, "The Clubhouse," Duran reveals that as a rookie in 2022, he was struggling so badly, he attempted suicide.
"I got to the point where I was sitting in my room, I had my rifle and I had a bullet, and I pulled the trigger and the gun clicked, but nothing happened," Duran said in the latest espiode, which will be released on Tuesday.
“To this day, I think God just didn’t let me take my own life because I seriously don’t know why it didn’t go off. But I took it as a sign of like, ‘Alright, I might have to be here for a reason.'"
Duran, 28, has been outspoken in the past about his struggles with mental health.
In recognition of all he's been through, Duran writes "Still Alive" on his wristbands before every game. Those words provided the title for the Netflix series' new episode, which focuses on Duran's journey.
In a statement to local Red Sox reporters, team president and CEO Sam Kennedy commended Duran for his openness about the importance of mental health.
“Jarren’s decision to share his story is an act of courage that reaches far beyond baseball,” Kennedy said according to MassLive. “By opening up, he’s showing others who may be struggling that they’re not alone and that asking for help isn’t just okay, it’s essential."
If you or someone you know may be struggling with suicidal thoughts, you can call the U.S. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-TALK (8255) any time day or night, or chat online.
Crisis Text Line also provides free, 24/7, confidential support via text message to people in crisis when they dial 741741.
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